Being Mary in a Martha World

In all the spiritual highs and lows of the past couple of weeks, if there's one thing I've been personally impressed with and convicted of, it's the fact that I simply do not adore my Savior as much as He deserves. 

I don't spend enough quality time with Him. I'm not a good enough listener. I too seldom fall on my face in overwhelming, reverent gratitude for this Person who literally sacrificed Himself for me.

I'm guilty of having a heart divided.

"Teach me your may, O Lord, and I will walk in your truth; give me an undivided heart that I may fear your name." Psalm 86:11

Oh man. Is that ever my prayer.

I want to be like the woman (whose story is told in Matthew, Mark, Luke AND John) who was so aware of her desperate need for Jesus that she honored him with perfume she could probably barely afford and knelt at His feet, washing them with her tears. I am that sinful. We are that sinful. But how often do we have the humility to kneel before Him and, weeping, give Him everything we have?

I want to be like Mary, even though I innately tend towards being Martha. In Luke 10, when Jesus visits these sisters, Mary sits and listens intently to what He says. Martha, on the other hand, is the type-A go-getter who is "distracted by all the preparations that had to be made." 

That's me. Constantly distracted. And not always by bad things. By people. By being social. By my easily derailed train of thought. By remembering the past or wondering about the future. By all the things on my to-do list!

But Jesus told Martha, "You are worried and upset about many things, but only one thing is needed. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken from her."

I want to be Mary. Like her, I want to just BE with Jesus.

Thank you all for your faithful support and prayers during this time! The encouraging texts, Facebook messages, etc. have meant so much!!!

With Love,

Elizabeth