Confession: This post is really more for me than it is for you.
Here's where I externally process this season of my life and look ahead to the next...in this space between the three-year journey towards a master's degree in counseling and the fairly ambiguous-but-coming-together future. What's next, you might ask (and I know you might ask it because if you have had a conversation with me in the past few months, you probably already have), now that I've taken the last exam, turned in the last paper, and walked across the stage in a black robe and a funny hat?
Keep reading to find out :)
It's honestly hard to know where to begin on this one. I have learned SO much at seminary (both inside and outside of the classroom). I've learned to study the Bible better -- digging into hermeneutical principles like context, historical and cultural analysis, grammar and syntax, study of genre, and seeking to determine authorial intent -- and grown to love God's Word more and more. I have learned more about the character of God, human nature, and the wonder of all wonders that the God of the universe would condescend to identify with us in every way and take the punishment we deserved to restore us again to a right relationship with himself. I have pondered philosophical and theological questions like, "How do we know what we know?" and "What is real?" and "How do we know what is true?" and "Why would a good God allow suffering?"
I've also had up-close-and-personal, boots-on-the-ground, hands-in-the-dirt experience with pretty much all of the counseling issues I've studied in class (through my own personal experience or through walking alongside friends, family, or guys I've dated as they struggled with these things):
...anxiety...depression...abuse...grief and loss...eating disorders...suicidal ideation...same sex attraction...addiction...the challenges of adoption and foster care...the struggles children of divorce will face for the rest of their lives...
If there were ever any doubt he was indeed calling me to minister to people who are suffering, the gamut of grief and hardship I've walked (or sometimes crawled) through myself or alongside others in this short, three-year period seems to be evidence in support of that calling. I recently read a quote by John Piper I found relevant: "If you are called to counsel others, I entreat you, do not begrudge the seminary of suffering." It may not always feel fantastic, but I am truly thankful for the ways he's been using this place as a training ground for whatever he is leading me towards (and is already allowing me to do).
He's also been teaching me so much personally. I have certainly come to realize how broken I am...anxious...fearful...distrusting...easily angered...passive aggressive...a chronic grudge-holder...always chasing the ever-illusive MORE. I've come to realize how little I've actually/fully/functionally trusted God throughout my life. Instead, I try to make my own way, coddling my idols and chasing after wind. I've only begun to grasp the depth of his grace to me in that he has pursued me and loves me still.
In fact, I recently went through a bit of an existential crisis when a hope I've been holding onto for far too long was shattered.
What are you doing, God? How could I have been so wrong? Why do things I feel like you're leading me in just implode? Am I mishearing you? Are you even there?
I realized that night that I have a decision to make. The image of literally sitting on a fence came to mind. There are really only two options here: Either God does not exist and the past half a decade or so of my life has been absolutely meaningless and I better find something else to do with my life OR he is who he says he is and he is both fully sovereign and fully good and he is working all things together for the good of those who love him and are called according to his purpose (Romans 8:28).
And my life is eternally impacted by which side of the fence I land on. Either I land on Side A (there is no God -- or if there is, he obviously either isn't good or isn't powerful -- and life is ultimately meaningless because we are all going to die and return to dust anyway so we might as well live a hedonistic, pleasure-seeking existence because this is really all there is [cf. Ecclesiastes]) OR Side B...a good God created the universe and each image-bearer in it on purpose and for a purpose and "the skies proclaim to works of his hands" (Psalm 19:1)...and he didn't make us robots but gave us the potential to really love and really choose to love him and be faithful to him...but we were disobedient and ran away...but he still bought us back and brought us back, if we will surrender our lives to the Savior of Souls and return to him...and he is working it all -- all the pain and the suffering (which he voluntarily entered into and personally experienced) as well as the beauty and the joy -- towards an ultimate grand finale of once-and-for-all restoration.
If Option B is true, than I can't keep living like I actually believe Option A. I can't keep being afraid that he'll pull the rug out from under me or drop me or walk out on me or that he's not there or doesn't care. "Perfect love drives out fear" (1 John 4:18).
If Option B is true, I don't have to fear! "The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not want" (Psalm 23:1). I don't have to want! If he is wholly good and completely in control, I don't have to fear the unknown or the ambiguous or the seemingly hopeless. I can trust that, even if circumstances aren't want I expected or wanted them to be, he is working all things together for good and no plan of his can be thwarted (Job 42:2).
But it really is one or the other. Either he's there or he's not. Either he's sovereign or he's not. Either he's good or he's not. Either the Bible is true or it's not. Which will you believe? And will you live like you really believe it? As a counselor friend of mine said during an emotional breakdown I had a few months into this season, "It's dangerous to only believe something in theory."
So, let's get back to the real reason you're probably reading this post: Where am I going from here?
Well, that's an excellent question. One I'd prefer to know a definitive, beyond-the-shadow-of-a-doubt answer to myself. But the truth is, there are a lot of question marks right now (from my finite perspective, at least). There's the potential for a counseling job that may or may not work out (and hopefully there will be others if it doesn't...and I plan to continue to pursue counseling experience in whatever way I can as I'm really just starting out). But there's also the possibility of going back to Italy, either with a family from my church or potentially to another city with the organization I went through the first time). The logistics and the timeline are a bit hazy, but the Lord does seem to be leading in that direction.
So, I'm praying for clarity on three things right now: 1) Where to go. 2) What to do. 3) With whom to do it. Would love it if you joined me in that.
The world feels a little too wide open for my Type-A personality. I like a plan. I really like control. But let's face it...control is an illusion anyway. Take this weekend, for instance: As I type this, I should be in Williamsburg with my family, doing Christmas-y things and giving my grandmother a break from a taxing time in her life. Instead, I came straight to my hometown for the holidays while my parents and uncle have been handling a situation with my grandfather (who has dementia and is no longer able to control his actions, unfortunately making him a danger to himself and the other patients at the nursing home he had been living in for the past six weeks). May it be a lesson not to be so arrogant that we think we can truly plan our own way, saying, "'Today or tomorrow we will go into such and such a town and spend a year there and trade and make a profit' -- yet you do not know what tomorrow will bring" (James 4:13-14).
So, even if I had a really "concrete plan," it would likely change -- or at least turn out differently than I expected. So here I am again...just trying to trust and obey in the midst of uncertainly...and marveling at the work he's done in my heart in the past few years that has kept me from melting into an anxious puddle as would once have been my tendency. Which, ya know, may still happen at some point...
As so many times before, I find myself again in a season of waiting. But as God has graciously drawn me closer to himself, I feel myself waiting more in a posture of expectancy than anxiety. It has made this Advent season -- this annual period of longing and expectancy -- all the sweeter.
I'm sure I could go on and on about all this season has meant to me...and how much it has changed me...But I'll spare you the endless ramble and leave you with something that drew me to tears at my graduation ceremony. The president preached on Hebrews 13:5, when the author quotes God's promise: "I will never leave you nor forsake you." He also quoted the Message's paraphrase: "I'll never let you down, never walk off and leave you."
How much of my life have I really functionally been driven by that fear?
Better come up with a back up plan, because God might not come through...
...What if, like so many people in my life, we gives up and walks out? What if he lets me down?"
Clinging to his promise never to leave us or forsake us, we can face the future fearless and faithful. We don't have to want. We don't have to fear. We have a God who, if we put our trust in him (if we land on the "Truth" side of the fence), is for us. And he is with us in every way.
Emmanuel. God with us.
The One who holds the stars
In the creases of His hands
Is the One who holds my heart
Like a mother once held him
The One who knows what lies
Where space has run its course
Embraced a baby’s mind
And now I can know my God
The monarch of the stars
The King above all kings
The ruler of my heart
And the Saviour for my sins
The One who sees what lies
In each and every soul
Embraced our finite eyes
And now we can see our God
["Arrival" by Hillsong]
Friday, December 21, 2018
Sunday, October 14, 2018
A Chance to Die
Book Summary
Amy Carmichael lived a life of radical obedience and sacrifice. As a missionary whose husband, Jim Elliot, literally gave his life so that the Auca people in Ecuador could know the One who died to save them, biographer Elisabeth Elliot was also well-versed in sacrifice and submission, making her an appropriate candidate to chronicle Carmichael’s compelling story. As Elliot asserts in the preface, “The Christian life comes down to two simple things: trust and obedience,” both of which Amy Carmichael exemplified in her 83 years of following the Lord to foreign lands and loving the people he put in front of her (Elliot 16).
Elliot begins her biography by detailing Carmichael’s early years. Amy Carmichael was born in Millisle, Ireland on December 16, 1867. She was one of seven children, and her father died of pneumonia when she was 18 years old. While she grew up in a Christian home and faithfully served the poor in her community for much of her life, a true turning point in Carmichael’s life came at a Keswick Meeting in Scotland about a year after her father’s death when she truly realized for the first time that earthly things don’t really matter and she became “dead to the world,” rejoicing in the faith-awaking epiphany that “the Lord is able to keep us from falling” (37). A precocious, clever, and compassionate child, her adolescence was characterized by peacefulness and contentment as well as a no-nonsense attention to discipline, which would prove indispensable in shaping her into the woman God was calling her to be: “The sternness of Christian discipline put red blood—spiritual health—into the girl who could not have imagined then the buffetings she would be called on to endure” (26).
Another crucial juncture in Carmichael’s life came when Hudson Taylor of the China Inland Mission visited Belfast in 1887 and told of the thousands of souls hourly passing into eternity without the hope of the gospel. Soon after, Amy wrote, “Does it not stir up our hearts to go forth and help them, does it not make us long to leave our luxury, our exceedingly abundant light, and go to them that sit in darkness?” (41). She would go on to identify January 13, 1892 as the day God unmistakably and irrefutably called her to go. Soon after, she was appointed as the first missionary to be sent out by the Keswick Convention.
Originally planning to go to China, her health prevented her from going where and when she had planned. Instead, “‘the thought came’ to Amy that Japan was the place for her to go,” and she prepared to journey halfway across the globe shortly afterward (63). Sickness set in (a condition the doctors described as “brain exhaustion”) and, after nearly two years in Japan, it was settled that she would move to Ceylon (modern-day Sri Lanka). After a ten-month respite in England, she ultimately moved to India, never again to return to her homeland.
During her nearly 56 years in India, she founded and ran the Dohnavur Fellowship, a home for at-risk and underprivileged children that is still thriving today. A passionate evangelist, she felt called to lay aside an occupation that brought her great joy to serve as “mother” for hundreds of children over several decades. She fought fervently for girls who were taken as children to become temple prostitutes, often risking her life to rescue them from such a fate. In her nearly 400-page biography, Elliot tells extensively of Carmichael’s work at Dohnavur until an accident 1931 left her predominantly confined to her room for the remainder of her life. However, she was still actively involved in the management of Dohnavur and the lives of the people in the community there until her death in 1951. She wrote nearly 40 books in her lifetime, and her voice still rings out across the ages. Her faithfulness impacted millions, leaving an indelible imprint on the world and pointing countless souls to Christ.
Personal Reaction
Amy Carmichael’s story has made a profound impression on me, personally. It was also a timely read, as I am currently wrestling with the possibility of going back overseas. Her courageous example of making the counter-cultural commitment to follow the Lord to far-away places, to be dependent on him for every material provision, and to do it all as an unmarried woman are all particularly inspiring.
First of all, she surrendered her life to overseas mission work, leaving behind the comfort of all things familiar and amidst initial opposition from those dearest to her. Upon her mother’s resistance to her going, she responded with, “My Precious Mother, have you given your child unreservedly to the Lord for whatever he wills? …O may he strengthen you to say YES to him if he asks something which costs” (54). Despite her conviction of her calling, leaving her loved ones behind was by no means easy: “I feel as though I have been stabbing someone I loved…The certainty that it was his voice I heard has never wavered, though all my heart has shrunk from what it means, though I seem torn in two” (54). Eventually, the Lord aligned her mother’s will with his own and she was able to write, “He is yours—you are his—to take you where he pleases and to use you as he pleases. I can trust you to him and I do…All day he has helped me, and my heart unfailingly says, ‘Go ye'” (55). It is a comfort to know that even the great Amy Carmichael faced doubt (her own and that of her family) and opposition before taking the leap of faith to journey to far-away lands for the sake of a Kingdom greater than her own and that the Lord was faithful to lead her loved ones to ultimately support her going, heart-wrenching as it was not to be able to hold on to someone they loved so deeply.
Additionally, Carmichael’s legacy serves as an encouragement and challenge to live a life of spiritual fervor and what she called “Calvary Love.” During her time in India, Carmichael wrote, “Our prayers for the evangelization of the world are but a bitter irony so long as we only give of our superfluity and draw back before the sacrifice of ourselves” (164). How often are the priorities of Christ-followers skewed and sidetracked in favor of earthly comforts, pleasure, and ambition? Carmichael would have none of it. She understood that the call to follow Christ was one of suffering and sacrifice, as she beautifully puts it in one of her poems:
No wound? No scar?
Yet, as the Master shall the servant be,
And pierced are the feet that follow Me,
But thine are whole; can he have followed far
Who has nor wound nor scar? (264)
Carmichael understood the importance of faithfully loving those in her community, and love was a pervasive characteristic at Dohnavur. She fought to protect her community from divisiveness and disunity, with love being the tie that bound them all together. Additionally, she did not believe in fundraising or living in abundance. Instead, she and the Dohnavur community lived on very little, monetarily speaking, and funds were always miraculously provided for the work at just the right time. Elliot mentions numerous instances in which a need was prayed for and the money (often in the exact amount) would arrive nearly immediately afterward. There can be no doubt that God was and continues to be at work in the ministry there.
Lastly, Carmichael did it all without the help, comfort, or headship of a husband. This aspect of her life is the one that, for me, is most intimidating to consider imitating. If I’m honest, what scares me most about returning overseas is the thought of doing so without the built-in support system of my own family. Did she ever mourn the life she missed out on—a life consisting of marriage and motherhood (although, in reality, she was “mother” to hundreds of children throughout her life)? She apparently never said much on the subject, but she did once write to a friend of a time when she might have chosen “the other life”: “Deep down in me a voice seemed to be saying, ‘No, no, no, I have something different for you to do,’” going on to say, “Remember our God did not say to me, ‘I have something greater for you to do.’ This life is not greater than the other, but it is different. That is all. For some our Father chooses one, for some he chooses the other, all that matters is that we should be obedient…” (287). So, is the fear of going alone a good enough reason to stay when he is calling you to go? Carmichael would probably laugh and give her rebuttal in her usual straightforward and witty way, perhaps offering another of her poems in empathetic encouragement:
If Thy dear Home be fuller, Lord,
For that a little emptier
My house on earth, what rich reward
That guerdon were. (288)
Amy Carmichael is a beautiful example of faithfulness, trust, and obedience for fellow Christians to follow. Her life of Calvary Love should compel the church today to live sacrificially for what truly matters and to “count everything as loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus” (Phil. 3:8). Christians can also learn from her commitment to trust him even in ambiguity and amidst danger, doubt, discouragement, and discomfort. Carmichael’s trust in the Lord to meet all her needs also flies in the face of American notions of independence, individuality, and self-sufficiency. Where are the men and women today who would surrender all to serve Christ and love others so wholeheartedly? Could I trustingly allow him to lead me where, as Hillsong’s “Oceans” says, “my trust is without borders…where feet may fail and fear surrounds me”? Am I strong enough to do it alone? Amy Carmichael would answer, “Yes,” because “the called and chosen can by God’s grace be faithful, and to follow the Crucified is all that matters to the true lover and disciple” (287). So, with examples like Amy Carmichael and Elisabeth Elliot before me, I can follow him into “the great unknown, where feet may fail,” knowing that “his grace abounds in deepest waters” and “[his] sovereign hand will be my guide.”
Thursday, June 7, 2018
fear / foundations / fish / faith
I apologize for my silence this semester.
Life has been fairly full, to say the least: living the full-time student life while working four part-time jobs and serving in different ministries at my church but still wanting to make people my top priority. It's a balancing act (or a juggling act...or both...), but it's been varied and interesting and instructive and fun!
So, since it's been about half a year, this blog post has been brewing for a while. As I sat down (or rather, went for a walk) to think about how to piece together some of the things God's been teaching me this semester, I realized there were two common threads:
Trust.
And Hope Reins.
It seems that the theme of my life this year is "trust." God seems to be asking me, through a smorgasbord of circumstances, "Do you trust me? Do you really? Do you fully, functionally believe I've got you and I'm working things together for your good?"
Unfortunately, I can typically only offer a tentatively affirmative response. At best.
I know I have trust issues. Turns out they're mostly with God.
So, God has been using one of my jobs, Hope Reins (a non-profit ministry that I LOVE that pairs rescued horses with kids in crisis to offer opportunities for True Hope and Real Healing -- knowing that can only truly come through a relationship with Christ), to give me my fair share of object lessons to teach me about trust over the past few months.
Don't worry. I've got several vignettes to prove it.
I'm an experiential, tactile learner. We probably all are, to some extent. If I experience an "Aha!" moment through something that I'm doing, what I learn from that experience lodges itself more securely in my psyche.
One of those experiences came during the intern orientation at Hope Reins. We did an activity in which we got to be the "session kids": We were each asked to set up our own obstacle representing an obstacle in our own lives and then we would work together to get the horse around the obstacle course without a halter or lead line. My obstacle was a cross-rail made out of pool noodles (that kept blowing away in the wind) that represented my fear of the unknown future. As a group, we decided the order in which we wanted to get Sparrow to go over each of our obstacles. I think mine might have been last. But, much to my surprise, Sparrow actually blew right through my obstacle without us even trying to get him to go over it as we were headed towards another one. I laughed as he barreled through the physical representation of all my anticipatory anxiety, giving me a memory I've reference time and time again when I need to be reminded to just relax and go with it.
"Fear not, for I am with you;
be not dismayed, for I am your God;
I will strengthen you, I will help you,
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." -Isaiah 41:10
"Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go." -Joshua 1:9
"The heart of man plans his way,
but the Lord established his steps." -Proverbs 16:9
[Do you trust me?]
Another big learning moment came during a training at Hope Reins shortly after that. We were focusing on one of the main things we (and especially our session kids, many of whom have been abandoned, neglected, or abused by people who are supposed to love, protect, and take care of them) can learn from horses: trust. So we had just spent an hour talking about trusting God and people and how it takes much longer to build trust than to break it and that God is the only one who is 100% trustworthy (And the Lord has since been pressing this truth into my heart: He is only 100% trustworthy if he is both 100% good and 100% in control. And he is.).
BUT.
As I was driving home that night, I was doing anything but trusting God with my situation...
Let me tell you about my house. I live in a house with four other women that was built in 1901 (and only has one bathroom). The walls are wonky and the floors are slightly slanted. There's a massive four-way fireplace that's blocked off, and I've always been curious about what's in there (dead bodies, perhaps). We've had issues with mold and mice (Yes...we caught about 10 mice in six months or so...one of which ate the York peppermint patties IN MY NIGHTSTAND and was hoarding Goldfish under my roommate's bed. But the exterminator came and we haven't seen a mouse in months. So it's fine.).
So, at the time, our landlord decided to do foundation work on our house...with us still living in it. Consequently, a massive dirt hole replaced our living room for a few days. So, as I was driving home from the trust training at Hope Reins that night, a million thoughts were running though my head: "I can't sleep there tonight...Where am I gonna stay? Can I even get in my room to pack a bag? My bedroom door is currently suspended about four feet off the ground!"
It finally occurred to me a few stoplights from home that, even after spending a solid hour talking about trusting in the Lord, I was just getting more and more tangled in my own anxious thoughts and had not even paused to pray.
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
and do not lean on your own understanding.
In all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight." -Proverbs 3:5-6
[Do you trust me? Do you really?]
A few weeks later, I had my first 1:1 session at Hope Reins (something I was definitely nervous about and intimidated by...How could I lovingly speak truth into these kids' lives who had been through so much? How would I know the right things to say and do?).
But that night, God had much more to say to me than I did to the 11-year-old girl I was paired with.
Instead of working with the horses, she wanted to go fishing. This may come as a shock to some of you, but I am no fisherwoman. So I was just like, "Cool, guess I'll halfheartedly stand here with the fishing pole and talk to her while she hopefully catches something."
BUT. Much to my surprise (again), directly after a noteworthily pathetic "cast" (that was really just dropping my line in the water right in front of me), my bobber thing (?) dipped below the surface and I reeled in a fish! I laughed and squealed and thankfully got another session leader to help me get the little guy off the hook and actually held the thing before tossing it back into the pond.
Here again was an object lesson showing me what happens, "when fears are stilled, when strivings cease." Catching that fish had nothing (NOTHING) whatsoever to do with my own aptitude. He lovingly showed me that all my striving and my selfish pride in my own skill is ultimately all for nothing. I can't fix these kids' problems. I can't change hearts and minds. I can't make things happen the way I want them to happen. It is the Lord who does the work. He is 100% in control. And he is 100% good.
"Unless the Lord builds the house,
those who build it labor in vain." -Psalm 127:1
"The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still." -Exodus 14:14
[Do you trust me? Do you really? Do you fully, functionally believe I've got you?]
I'm gonna be honest. I'm tempted to end this post right there, because this last one hits a little too close to home. But in the interest of transparency and with the hope that this could resonate with someone else, I'll share what has potentially been the most impactful object lesson.
Vulnerable moment...I know "normal" means getting married in your early 20's and settling down and starting a family. White picket fence and all that. And a very substantial part of me wishes that had been my story...and 21-year-old me expected that to be my story. But that's about the time that God rocked my world and started writing a story that's been anything but conventional. And I wouldn't trade any of the things I've gotten to experience or the places I've gotten to go or the people I've loved (and sometimes lost). I know none of those things would have happened if I'd gotten married right out of college. So I don't regret any of it. And I am thankful. But I still want a ministry partner, lover, and best friend. I still want a family of my own. [By the way, if you've ever found out someone was not married and thought less of them for it or pitied them in some way that showed in your facial expression or offered some sort of platitude, patting them on the back and imploring them to just be patient...please just don't do any of those things. If you're interested in loving your unmarried friends better, let's talk. I have a lot of thoughts.]
So, for better or for worse, I've had a couple of failed almost-relationships this year (cue Meghan's Trainor's song, "Mr. Almost"). And I'm not gonna lie -- it's a little exhausting. Anyway, while still reeling from my most recent episode of not-quite-right (as in, the day after it ended), I had a training session and a 1:1 session at Hope Reins. And I did NOT want to go. How was I supposed to speak into these kids lives when I was feeling so hurt? How was I supposed to talk about how great God was when I didn't even want to talk to him...when I was mad at him and didn't even feel like he saw me or heard me or cared?
Well. As usual, God met me right in the middle of my pain. He used that training session (that turned into my own personal equine therapy session) to minister to me and remind me he is indeed "the God who sees me" (Genesis 16:13). He used a fellow session leader to speak that truth over me and a horse who chose me when some guy had rejected me (Kody followed me around the arena with no lead line -- away from the hay we had brought we us, and I got to ride him that night). Then I ended up working with Kody in several sessions that week and he was able to minister to other "session kids" as well. Not only that, but God has been using everything I've been feeling (and just being real: there have been a lot of emotions lately) to speak directly into the lives of two of my high school girls especially. Seriously. They've said things lately that I've just been like, "Yup...been there...that's exactly how I felt, like, last week." He knows. He sees. He cares. He carries.
"You have kept count of all my tossings;
put my tears in your bottle.
Are they not in your book?
...in God I trust; I shall not be afraid.
What can man to do me?" -Psalm 56:8,11
"Trust in the Lord and do good;
dwell in the land and feed on faithfulness...
...be still before he Lord and wait patiently for him..." -Psalm 37:3,7
[Do you trust me? Do you really? Do you fully, functionally believe I've got you and I'm working things together for your good?]
I can see that he's using so many things to teach me about trust. I can see that he's not wasting any of this. Even though it's painful and heavy sometimes and this might not be what I would have chosen for myself...
He's 100% in control and he's 100% good. And he's not finished yet.
"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." -Romans 8:28
Life has been fairly full, to say the least: living the full-time student life while working four part-time jobs and serving in different ministries at my church but still wanting to make people my top priority. It's a balancing act (or a juggling act...or both...), but it's been varied and interesting and instructive and fun!
So, since it's been about half a year, this blog post has been brewing for a while. As I sat down (or rather, went for a walk) to think about how to piece together some of the things God's been teaching me this semester, I realized there were two common threads:
Trust.
And Hope Reins.
It seems that the theme of my life this year is "trust." God seems to be asking me, through a smorgasbord of circumstances, "Do you trust me? Do you really? Do you fully, functionally believe I've got you and I'm working things together for your good?"
Unfortunately, I can typically only offer a tentatively affirmative response. At best.
I know I have trust issues. Turns out they're mostly with God.
So, God has been using one of my jobs, Hope Reins (a non-profit ministry that I LOVE that pairs rescued horses with kids in crisis to offer opportunities for True Hope and Real Healing -- knowing that can only truly come through a relationship with Christ), to give me my fair share of object lessons to teach me about trust over the past few months.
Don't worry. I've got several vignettes to prove it.
I'm an experiential, tactile learner. We probably all are, to some extent. If I experience an "Aha!" moment through something that I'm doing, what I learn from that experience lodges itself more securely in my psyche.
One of those experiences came during the intern orientation at Hope Reins. We did an activity in which we got to be the "session kids": We were each asked to set up our own obstacle representing an obstacle in our own lives and then we would work together to get the horse around the obstacle course without a halter or lead line. My obstacle was a cross-rail made out of pool noodles (that kept blowing away in the wind) that represented my fear of the unknown future. As a group, we decided the order in which we wanted to get Sparrow to go over each of our obstacles. I think mine might have been last. But, much to my surprise, Sparrow actually blew right through my obstacle without us even trying to get him to go over it as we were headed towards another one. I laughed as he barreled through the physical representation of all my anticipatory anxiety, giving me a memory I've reference time and time again when I need to be reminded to just relax and go with it.
"Fear not, for I am with you;
be not dismayed, for I am your God;
I will strengthen you, I will help you,
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." -Isaiah 41:10
"Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go." -Joshua 1:9
"The heart of man plans his way,
but the Lord established his steps." -Proverbs 16:9
[Do you trust me?]
Another big learning moment came during a training at Hope Reins shortly after that. We were focusing on one of the main things we (and especially our session kids, many of whom have been abandoned, neglected, or abused by people who are supposed to love, protect, and take care of them) can learn from horses: trust. So we had just spent an hour talking about trusting God and people and how it takes much longer to build trust than to break it and that God is the only one who is 100% trustworthy (And the Lord has since been pressing this truth into my heart: He is only 100% trustworthy if he is both 100% good and 100% in control. And he is.).
BUT.
As I was driving home that night, I was doing anything but trusting God with my situation...
Let me tell you about my house. I live in a house with four other women that was built in 1901 (and only has one bathroom). The walls are wonky and the floors are slightly slanted. There's a massive four-way fireplace that's blocked off, and I've always been curious about what's in there (dead bodies, perhaps). We've had issues with mold and mice (Yes...we caught about 10 mice in six months or so...one of which ate the York peppermint patties IN MY NIGHTSTAND and was hoarding Goldfish under my roommate's bed. But the exterminator came and we haven't seen a mouse in months. So it's fine.).
So, at the time, our landlord decided to do foundation work on our house...with us still living in it. Consequently, a massive dirt hole replaced our living room for a few days. So, as I was driving home from the trust training at Hope Reins that night, a million thoughts were running though my head: "I can't sleep there tonight...Where am I gonna stay? Can I even get in my room to pack a bag? My bedroom door is currently suspended about four feet off the ground!"
It finally occurred to me a few stoplights from home that, even after spending a solid hour talking about trusting in the Lord, I was just getting more and more tangled in my own anxious thoughts and had not even paused to pray.
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
and do not lean on your own understanding.
In all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight." -Proverbs 3:5-6
[Do you trust me? Do you really?]
A few weeks later, I had my first 1:1 session at Hope Reins (something I was definitely nervous about and intimidated by...How could I lovingly speak truth into these kids' lives who had been through so much? How would I know the right things to say and do?).
But that night, God had much more to say to me than I did to the 11-year-old girl I was paired with.
Instead of working with the horses, she wanted to go fishing. This may come as a shock to some of you, but I am no fisherwoman. So I was just like, "Cool, guess I'll halfheartedly stand here with the fishing pole and talk to her while she hopefully catches something."
BUT. Much to my surprise (again), directly after a noteworthily pathetic "cast" (that was really just dropping my line in the water right in front of me), my bobber thing (?) dipped below the surface and I reeled in a fish! I laughed and squealed and thankfully got another session leader to help me get the little guy off the hook and actually held the thing before tossing it back into the pond.
Here again was an object lesson showing me what happens, "when fears are stilled, when strivings cease." Catching that fish had nothing (NOTHING) whatsoever to do with my own aptitude. He lovingly showed me that all my striving and my selfish pride in my own skill is ultimately all for nothing. I can't fix these kids' problems. I can't change hearts and minds. I can't make things happen the way I want them to happen. It is the Lord who does the work. He is 100% in control. And he is 100% good.
"Unless the Lord builds the house,
those who build it labor in vain." -Psalm 127:1
"The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still." -Exodus 14:14
[Do you trust me? Do you really? Do you fully, functionally believe I've got you?]
I'm gonna be honest. I'm tempted to end this post right there, because this last one hits a little too close to home. But in the interest of transparency and with the hope that this could resonate with someone else, I'll share what has potentially been the most impactful object lesson.
Vulnerable moment...I know "normal" means getting married in your early 20's and settling down and starting a family. White picket fence and all that. And a very substantial part of me wishes that had been my story...and 21-year-old me expected that to be my story. But that's about the time that God rocked my world and started writing a story that's been anything but conventional. And I wouldn't trade any of the things I've gotten to experience or the places I've gotten to go or the people I've loved (and sometimes lost). I know none of those things would have happened if I'd gotten married right out of college. So I don't regret any of it. And I am thankful. But I still want a ministry partner, lover, and best friend. I still want a family of my own. [By the way, if you've ever found out someone was not married and thought less of them for it or pitied them in some way that showed in your facial expression or offered some sort of platitude, patting them on the back and imploring them to just be patient...please just don't do any of those things. If you're interested in loving your unmarried friends better, let's talk. I have a lot of thoughts.]
So, for better or for worse, I've had a couple of failed almost-relationships this year (cue Meghan's Trainor's song, "Mr. Almost"). And I'm not gonna lie -- it's a little exhausting. Anyway, while still reeling from my most recent episode of not-quite-right (as in, the day after it ended), I had a training session and a 1:1 session at Hope Reins. And I did NOT want to go. How was I supposed to speak into these kids lives when I was feeling so hurt? How was I supposed to talk about how great God was when I didn't even want to talk to him...when I was mad at him and didn't even feel like he saw me or heard me or cared?
Well. As usual, God met me right in the middle of my pain. He used that training session (that turned into my own personal equine therapy session) to minister to me and remind me he is indeed "the God who sees me" (Genesis 16:13). He used a fellow session leader to speak that truth over me and a horse who chose me when some guy had rejected me (Kody followed me around the arena with no lead line -- away from the hay we had brought we us, and I got to ride him that night). Then I ended up working with Kody in several sessions that week and he was able to minister to other "session kids" as well. Not only that, but God has been using everything I've been feeling (and just being real: there have been a lot of emotions lately) to speak directly into the lives of two of my high school girls especially. Seriously. They've said things lately that I've just been like, "Yup...been there...that's exactly how I felt, like, last week." He knows. He sees. He cares. He carries.
"You have kept count of all my tossings;
put my tears in your bottle.
Are they not in your book?
...in God I trust; I shall not be afraid.
What can man to do me?" -Psalm 56:8,11
"Trust in the Lord and do good;
dwell in the land and feed on faithfulness...
...be still before he Lord and wait patiently for him..." -Psalm 37:3,7
[Do you trust me? Do you really? Do you fully, functionally believe I've got you and I'm working things together for your good?]
I can see that he's using so many things to teach me about trust. I can see that he's not wasting any of this. Even though it's painful and heavy sometimes and this might not be what I would have chosen for myself...
He's 100% in control and he's 100% good. And he's not finished yet.
"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." -Romans 8:28
Saturday, December 16, 2017
advent[ure].
Did you know that there was an actual diagnosable condition for being sad in the winter?
Quite appropriately, its acronym is SAD -- Seasonal Affective Disorder -- and, according to the National Institute of Mental Health, it is "a type of depression that comes and goes with the seasons, typically starting in the late fall and early winter and going away during the spring and summer."
And I'm pretty sure I have it. Seriously. The doctor told me a couple of years ago I had a Vitamin D deficiency, which can be one of the causes of SAD. So there's that. And, I know many people would disagree with me, but I personally don't think there are many redeemable qualities about winter. I'm a baby about the cold, I hate that it gets dark so early, all of nature goes into hibernation mode, and snow may be pretty, but it's also pretty inconvenient. Give me sunshine and leaves and flowers and long days and beaches (and even the humidity) any day.
But whether or not you share my aversion to winter, do you ever feel like you're in the metaphorical "winter" of life? That the months of dark-gray vibes and shudder-worthy temperatures and "I can't put my arms down" layers (this....this is how I feel in winter) will never end and you ache for the coming of spring?
I've been listening to Hillsong's new song, "Seasons," a lot lately:
The lyrics in this song have really been resonating with me in this particular "season" of my life: a little over halfway through grad school, landing here shortly after ending an exciting/challenging season of living overseas, looking ahead and wondering what's beyond the bend in the road that is graduation...feeling like this is a training ground...a time of preparation for something...not really desiring to stay in this place/this season forever but hoping the future involves serving the Lord with the gifts and passions he's given me (and hopefully making money doing that because, ya know, that does help) and having a family of my own and possibly living overseas again. And the struggles of the single/dating life and being a full-time student with a plurality of part-time jobs is just so real. So these lyrics have met me right smack dab where I currently am:
Another season Christians are currently living is that of Advent. Advent means "a coming into being," and at Christmas, it is a season of waiting and anticipation for the celebration of Christ's first coming...and truly "coming into being" as a human child. As the song "Arrival" (another track on Hillsong's new Christmas album) perfectly puts it:
Who is God that He would take our frame
The artisan inside the paint
Or breathe the very air His breath sustains
The architect inside the plan...
Oh come now hail His arrival
The God of creation
Royalty robed in the flesh He created
Jesus the maker has made Himself known
All hail the infinite infant God...
God embraced our frame
When He graced the world He made
All hail the divine in a manger
Love embraced our fate
When the playwright took the stage...
At Christmastime, we put ourselves in the nation of Israel's shoes in the anticipation of the arrival of their Servant King. In the cold and the dark and the seemingly dead, we eagerly await the dawning of the Light of the World.
"The people who walked in darkness have seen a great light;
those who dwelt in the land of deep darkness, on them a light has dawned...
For to us a child is born, to us a son is given;
and the government shall be upon his shoulders,
and his name shall be called
Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace" (Isaiah 6:2,6).
"In the beginning was the Word, and the word was with God, and the Word was God. He was in the beginning with God. All things were made through him, and without him was not any thing made that was made. In him was life, and the life was the light of men. The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it....And the Word became flesh and dwelt among us, and we have seen his glory, glory of the only Son from the Father, full of grace and truth" (John 1:1-5,14).
So Advent. A season of waiting. Of longing. Of anticipation.
But did you know that, etymologically speaking, the word "adventure" finds its roots in the Latin word for "advent"?
So what if we looked at the waiting/longing/winter seasons of our lives as an adventure? Because it is. All of it. Waiting for _________ does NOT mean you have to wait of joy. Not [yet] having __________ (insert "that job," "that house," "that spouse," "that baby") does NOT disqualifying you from going all in right where you are...serving God and loving the people right in front of you. Here. Not somewhere else.
I read this quote from the ever-wise and well-spoken Elisabeth Elliot recently: "[This] job has been given to me to do. Therefore it is a gift. Therefore it is a privilege. Therefore it is an offering I may make to God. Therefore it is to be done gladly, if it is done for Him ... Here, not somewhere else, I may learn God's way. In this job, not in some other, God looks for faithfulness ... With Your help I will do it gladly, faithfully, and I will trust You to make me holy."
Hence, while I love the song "Seasons," my beef with it is that it disregards (or at least discounts) the discipline of contentment in the here and now in favor of fixing our eyes on the future (perceived as "better") season. While we should (prayerfully) look forward in eager expectation for God to work wonders in our lives, we should not set our hopes on __________. While "Seasons" is honest about the angst and ache of the winter of waiting, we are not called to merely hibernate, putting out lives on pause until the warmth and light of spring dawns. We are called to "mak[e] the most of [our] time" (Ephesians 5:16).
We are in the in-between. Our King has already come, but we're not yet with him fully forever. So there is disappointment and brokenness and pain. But that Day is coming. That Restoration -- the "summer" season -- the "making all things new" promised in Revelation 21 is not far off.
So find the beauty in the bleak midwinter. In this time, perhaps, of heartache and hardship. In this period of waiting for ___________. Go play in the snow. Curl up by the fire. Drink all the hot chocolate and listen to all the Christmas music and wear lots of flannel. Rejoice "with exceeding great joy" (Matthew 2:20). And go and tell the world where True Hope/Peace/Joy can be found.
Quite appropriately, its acronym is SAD -- Seasonal Affective Disorder -- and, according to the National Institute of Mental Health, it is "a type of depression that comes and goes with the seasons, typically starting in the late fall and early winter and going away during the spring and summer."
And I'm pretty sure I have it. Seriously. The doctor told me a couple of years ago I had a Vitamin D deficiency, which can be one of the causes of SAD. So there's that. And, I know many people would disagree with me, but I personally don't think there are many redeemable qualities about winter. I'm a baby about the cold, I hate that it gets dark so early, all of nature goes into hibernation mode, and snow may be pretty, but it's also pretty inconvenient. Give me sunshine and leaves and flowers and long days and beaches (and even the humidity) any day.
But whether or not you share my aversion to winter, do you ever feel like you're in the metaphorical "winter" of life? That the months of dark-gray vibes and shudder-worthy temperatures and "I can't put my arms down" layers (this....this is how I feel in winter) will never end and you ache for the coming of spring?
I've been listening to Hillsong's new song, "Seasons," a lot lately:
The lyrics in this song have really been resonating with me in this particular "season" of my life: a little over halfway through grad school, landing here shortly after ending an exciting/challenging season of living overseas, looking ahead and wondering what's beyond the bend in the road that is graduation...feeling like this is a training ground...a time of preparation for something...not really desiring to stay in this place/this season forever but hoping the future involves serving the Lord with the gifts and passions he's given me (and hopefully making money doing that because, ya know, that does help) and having a family of my own and possibly living overseas again. And the struggles of the single/dating life and being a full-time student with a plurality of part-time jobs is just so real. So these lyrics have met me right smack dab where I currently am:
Like the frost on a rose
Winter comes for us all
Oh how nature acquaints us
With the nature of patience...
Winter comes for us all
Oh how nature acquaints us
With the nature of patience...
Though the winter is long even richer
The harvest it brings
Though my waiting prolongs even greater
Your promise for me; like a seed
I believe that my season will come...
The harvest it brings
Though my waiting prolongs even greater
Your promise for me; like a seed
I believe that my season will come...
I can see the promise
I can see the future
You’re the God of seasons
I’m just in the winter
If all I know of harvest
Is that it’s worth my patience
Then if You’re not done working
God I’m not done waiting
You can see my promise
Even in the winter
Cause You’re the God of greatness
Even in a manger
For all I know of seasons
Is that You take Your time
You could have saved us in a second
Instead You sent a child...
I can see the future
You’re the God of seasons
I’m just in the winter
If all I know of harvest
Is that it’s worth my patience
Then if You’re not done working
God I’m not done waiting
You can see my promise
Even in the winter
Cause You’re the God of greatness
Even in a manger
For all I know of seasons
Is that You take Your time
You could have saved us in a second
Instead You sent a child...
Another season Christians are currently living is that of Advent. Advent means "a coming into being," and at Christmas, it is a season of waiting and anticipation for the celebration of Christ's first coming...and truly "coming into being" as a human child. As the song "Arrival" (another track on Hillsong's new Christmas album) perfectly puts it:
Who is God that He would take our frame
The artisan inside the paint
Or breathe the very air His breath sustains
The architect inside the plan...
Oh come now hail His arrival
The God of creation
Royalty robed in the flesh He created
Jesus the maker has made Himself known
All hail the infinite infant God...
The holy Word of God defined by name
The author climbed inside the page...
The author climbed inside the page...
God embraced our frame
When He graced the world He made
All hail the divine in a manger
Love embraced our fate
When the playwright took the stage...
At Christmastime, we put ourselves in the nation of Israel's shoes in the anticipation of the arrival of their Servant King. In the cold and the dark and the seemingly dead, we eagerly await the dawning of the Light of the World.
"The people who walked in darkness have seen a great light;
those who dwelt in the land of deep darkness, on them a light has dawned...
For to us a child is born, to us a son is given;
and the government shall be upon his shoulders,
and his name shall be called
Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace" (Isaiah 6:2,6).
"In the beginning was the Word, and the word was with God, and the Word was God. He was in the beginning with God. All things were made through him, and without him was not any thing made that was made. In him was life, and the life was the light of men. The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it....And the Word became flesh and dwelt among us, and we have seen his glory, glory of the only Son from the Father, full of grace and truth" (John 1:1-5,14).
So Advent. A season of waiting. Of longing. Of anticipation.
But did you know that, etymologically speaking, the word "adventure" finds its roots in the Latin word for "advent"?
So what if we looked at the waiting/longing/winter seasons of our lives as an adventure? Because it is. All of it. Waiting for _________ does NOT mean you have to wait of joy. Not [yet] having __________ (insert "that job," "that house," "that spouse," "that baby") does NOT disqualifying you from going all in right where you are...serving God and loving the people right in front of you. Here. Not somewhere else.
I read this quote from the ever-wise and well-spoken Elisabeth Elliot recently: "[This] job has been given to me to do. Therefore it is a gift. Therefore it is a privilege. Therefore it is an offering I may make to God. Therefore it is to be done gladly, if it is done for Him ... Here, not somewhere else, I may learn God's way. In this job, not in some other, God looks for faithfulness ... With Your help I will do it gladly, faithfully, and I will trust You to make me holy."
Hence, while I love the song "Seasons," my beef with it is that it disregards (or at least discounts) the discipline of contentment in the here and now in favor of fixing our eyes on the future (perceived as "better") season. While we should (prayerfully) look forward in eager expectation for God to work wonders in our lives, we should not set our hopes on __________. While "Seasons" is honest about the angst and ache of the winter of waiting, we are not called to merely hibernate, putting out lives on pause until the warmth and light of spring dawns. We are called to "mak[e] the most of [our] time" (Ephesians 5:16).
We are in the in-between. Our King has already come, but we're not yet with him fully forever. So there is disappointment and brokenness and pain. But that Day is coming. That Restoration -- the "summer" season -- the "making all things new" promised in Revelation 21 is not far off.
So find the beauty in the bleak midwinter. In this time, perhaps, of heartache and hardship. In this period of waiting for ___________. Go play in the snow. Curl up by the fire. Drink all the hot chocolate and listen to all the Christmas music and wear lots of flannel. Rejoice "with exceeding great joy" (Matthew 2:20). And go and tell the world where True Hope/Peace/Joy can be found.
Monday, November 6, 2017
inspire.
I've wanted to write something about singleness for quite a while now.
But I'm not going to do that.
[However, if you will allow me a tangental paragraph or two, I do have a couple of thoughts: First of all, married friends...we unmarried (or perhaps not-yet-married) folks need you. We, especially if God does call us to be someone's husband/wife one day, need to be able to view marriage realistically now. And having honest conversations with you is the best way to avoid the pitfalls of unrealistic expectations or relationship-status idolatry or even an unhealthy fear/distaste for marriage. You can help us think about marriage rightly, with all its joys and challenges. Additionally, in the absence of a spouse and kids who share our last name, you (especially if you are members of the same church) are our family. I firmly believe that, in a very real sense, the church (the Body of Christ...the Family of God) fulfills God's promise to "set the lonely in families" (Psalm 68:6). Please remember us, both in your prayers and at your dinner tables and family gatherings...those of us who no longer live with our families of origin and do not (yet, perhaps) have families of our own. You have an amazing opportunity to "practice hospitality" (see Romans 12 and Hebrews 13) and have a profound impact on someone younger than you and in whose shoes you have probably walked.
Secondly, single friends...you need married friends. Don't do yourself the disservice of only ever spending time with people just like you. Submit to the godly wisdom of men and women who have been walking with the Lord longer than you have. I had the immense pleasure today of having lunch with two lovely ladies from my home church who are a couple of generations ahead of me. I've had the honor of hearing their stories and I have complete confidence that they pray for me daily. Single or married...you need people like this in your life. Seek these brothers and sisters out. In the same way, have your eyes and heart open to people younger than you in whom you can invest and walk alongside. You have no idea the influence you could have. Be available. Do life with people different from you in age, life stage, whatever...Keep learning from others and be someone that others can learn from. Don't get so wrapped up in your lack of marital relationship that you forget to invest in other important relationships.
Lastly, I read recently something Heath Lambert said that I found extremely helpful: "All temptation has at least two defining elements -- a trial and an enticement to sin. The trial is an experience of testing that often includes suffering or a sense of deprivation. The enticement consists of an allurement to relieve suffering or deprivation through sin." Single friends (or heck, anyone who feels like "If I only had ________, I'd really be happy.") don't give into the lie that God is withholding something from you or depriving you of something. Be very careful not to let a "sense of deprivation" lead you into temptation. Yes, the struggle of singleness is real (trust me, I get it...all aspects of it). And I'm not going to spend the rest of this post detailing the woes of the unwed because well...there are plenty of other books and blog posts about that. But please do be mindful of the your heart's orientation in this area. As John Calvin said, our hearts are "idol factories." Guard against allowing marriage to be such an idol. Instead, ask God to "tune [your] heart to sing his praise" and give you the grace to serve him and love others (you do NOT have to wait for a spouse to do that).]
Okay. There's that.
But what I really want to talk about is an article I read the other day by Leslie Ludy about how we, as women, can inspire men to biblical manhood (men, don't tune me out here. I'd also love to hear your thoughts about how you can inspire women to biblical womanhood). And yes, I am approaching this from a single person's perspective (married friends, hang with me; this applies to you too).
I say I'm writing from a single's perspective because I feel like I hear complaints about and qualms with and disappointments in the opposite gender far too often (on both sides). But ladies...how are we, as women of "strength and dignity" (Proverbs 31:25) calling men higher? Is it possible to live it such a way that we could challenge and encourage and edify our brothers, "spur[ring] one another on to love and good deeds"?
So, instead of languishing over the lack of promising prospects (and shame on us for reducing each other to such), what if there were a more productive and positive perspective? Consider biblical examples of women doing this well: Esther, Ruth, Rahab (see Hebrews 11:31), Abigail influencing David (see 1 Samuel 25:32), Lydia influencing Paul (see Acts 16:15), and the godly wife in 1 Peter 3:1.
Again, these are pretty much straight out of the article, but here are four ways we can inspire and influence the men (or for men, the women) in our lives towards godliness:
1. Know the Power of Prayer : Are you angsting over them or praying for them? Are you devoting yourself to prayer for your brothers (or sisters) and/or husbands, fathers, actual blood-related brothers, etc.? For their holiness, humility, wisdom, compassion, protection from temptation, that they would not be sidelined by pride, and for their intimacy with God? I remember being deeply convicted when I went to visit a friend of mine and saw prayers for her brother scribbled across her bathroom mirror. I knew I wasn't praying for Beau that way...or my brothers in the faith or my dad or my future husband. Now I try to be intentional to pray for these men, especially those in ministry who will surely face intense spiritual warfare. Will you join me?
2. Exchange Criticism for Encouragement : Newsflash! Nagging never works. Never. Are our words building men up or tearing them down? I was actually just talking to my dad about this blog post and I asked him how he thought women could best inspire/influence men, and he said words of encouragement are really powerful. Instead of nitpicking the negative, what would happen if we made pointing out the positive a priority? Could a word of affirmation encourage men to keep pursuing what they are doing well? I will be the first to admit that I have failed in this more than I have done it well, and if you are a guy reading this who has fallen victim to any scathing remarks or passive aggression, I am deeply sorry. I want to love you better in this way in the future! [As a caveat, single ladies (and gentlemen), we obviously need to be wise about how we pour out words of affirmation on people of the opposite gender with whom we are not pursuing a romantic relationship.]
3. Set an Inspiring Example : I think Leslie Ludy said it well, so I'm just going to quote her directly: "When women choose to embrace godly strength and dignity, it sets and inspiring example for today's men. When guys observe a woman who holds to a higher standard than the cheap, desperate femininity of our culture, he is intrigued. And often, he is motivated to become the kind of man who is worthy of that kind of woman's heart."
4. Choose Faith Over Despair : I'm going to change her wording here and say, "Make sure your faith isn't misplaced." Psalm 146:3 says, "Put not your trust in princes, in a son of man, in whom there is no salvation," and Psalm 118:8 says, "It is better to take refuge in the Lord than to trust in man." Look to God and trust him to sanctify the men in your life and satisfy your soul; don't look to men to "save" you in some way. They will never live up to your expectations because you are placing them on a pedestal meant for God alone. As Ludy says, "Just as there are widespread problems with modern masculinity, there are also widespread problems with femininity. It is very dangerous to blame men as the prime culprits for all our cultural and relational woes. Men are not the problem -- sin is. And sin is something that each and every one of us has participated in -- male or female."
May everything we think, say, and do be full of grace and dignity as we interact with and love those who are different from us. And to circle back around to the singleness thing... Single friends, what would it look like to meditate on and live out these things instead of letting our eyes forever flit back to our naked left hand and find our worth in who has or has not put a ring on it?
"And don’t be wishing you were someplace else or with someone else. Where you are right now is God’s place for you. Live and obey and love and believe right there. God, not your marital status, defines your life." (1 Corinthians 7:17, the Message)
But I'm not going to do that.
[However, if you will allow me a tangental paragraph or two, I do have a couple of thoughts: First of all, married friends...we unmarried (or perhaps not-yet-married) folks need you. We, especially if God does call us to be someone's husband/wife one day, need to be able to view marriage realistically now. And having honest conversations with you is the best way to avoid the pitfalls of unrealistic expectations or relationship-status idolatry or even an unhealthy fear/distaste for marriage. You can help us think about marriage rightly, with all its joys and challenges. Additionally, in the absence of a spouse and kids who share our last name, you (especially if you are members of the same church) are our family. I firmly believe that, in a very real sense, the church (the Body of Christ...the Family of God) fulfills God's promise to "set the lonely in families" (Psalm 68:6). Please remember us, both in your prayers and at your dinner tables and family gatherings...those of us who no longer live with our families of origin and do not (yet, perhaps) have families of our own. You have an amazing opportunity to "practice hospitality" (see Romans 12 and Hebrews 13) and have a profound impact on someone younger than you and in whose shoes you have probably walked.
Secondly, single friends...you need married friends. Don't do yourself the disservice of only ever spending time with people just like you. Submit to the godly wisdom of men and women who have been walking with the Lord longer than you have. I had the immense pleasure today of having lunch with two lovely ladies from my home church who are a couple of generations ahead of me. I've had the honor of hearing their stories and I have complete confidence that they pray for me daily. Single or married...you need people like this in your life. Seek these brothers and sisters out. In the same way, have your eyes and heart open to people younger than you in whom you can invest and walk alongside. You have no idea the influence you could have. Be available. Do life with people different from you in age, life stage, whatever...Keep learning from others and be someone that others can learn from. Don't get so wrapped up in your lack of marital relationship that you forget to invest in other important relationships.
Lastly, I read recently something Heath Lambert said that I found extremely helpful: "All temptation has at least two defining elements -- a trial and an enticement to sin. The trial is an experience of testing that often includes suffering or a sense of deprivation. The enticement consists of an allurement to relieve suffering or deprivation through sin." Single friends (or heck, anyone who feels like "If I only had ________, I'd really be happy.") don't give into the lie that God is withholding something from you or depriving you of something. Be very careful not to let a "sense of deprivation" lead you into temptation. Yes, the struggle of singleness is real (trust me, I get it...all aspects of it). And I'm not going to spend the rest of this post detailing the woes of the unwed because well...there are plenty of other books and blog posts about that. But please do be mindful of the your heart's orientation in this area. As John Calvin said, our hearts are "idol factories." Guard against allowing marriage to be such an idol. Instead, ask God to "tune [your] heart to sing his praise" and give you the grace to serve him and love others (you do NOT have to wait for a spouse to do that).]
Okay. There's that.
But what I really want to talk about is an article I read the other day by Leslie Ludy about how we, as women, can inspire men to biblical manhood (men, don't tune me out here. I'd also love to hear your thoughts about how you can inspire women to biblical womanhood). And yes, I am approaching this from a single person's perspective (married friends, hang with me; this applies to you too).
I say I'm writing from a single's perspective because I feel like I hear complaints about and qualms with and disappointments in the opposite gender far too often (on both sides). But ladies...how are we, as women of "strength and dignity" (Proverbs 31:25) calling men higher? Is it possible to live it such a way that we could challenge and encourage and edify our brothers, "spur[ring] one another on to love and good deeds"?
So, instead of languishing over the lack of promising prospects (and shame on us for reducing each other to such), what if there were a more productive and positive perspective? Consider biblical examples of women doing this well: Esther, Ruth, Rahab (see Hebrews 11:31), Abigail influencing David (see 1 Samuel 25:32), Lydia influencing Paul (see Acts 16:15), and the godly wife in 1 Peter 3:1.
Again, these are pretty much straight out of the article, but here are four ways we can inspire and influence the men (or for men, the women) in our lives towards godliness:
1. Know the Power of Prayer : Are you angsting over them or praying for them? Are you devoting yourself to prayer for your brothers (or sisters) and/or husbands, fathers, actual blood-related brothers, etc.? For their holiness, humility, wisdom, compassion, protection from temptation, that they would not be sidelined by pride, and for their intimacy with God? I remember being deeply convicted when I went to visit a friend of mine and saw prayers for her brother scribbled across her bathroom mirror. I knew I wasn't praying for Beau that way...or my brothers in the faith or my dad or my future husband. Now I try to be intentional to pray for these men, especially those in ministry who will surely face intense spiritual warfare. Will you join me?
2. Exchange Criticism for Encouragement : Newsflash! Nagging never works. Never. Are our words building men up or tearing them down? I was actually just talking to my dad about this blog post and I asked him how he thought women could best inspire/influence men, and he said words of encouragement are really powerful. Instead of nitpicking the negative, what would happen if we made pointing out the positive a priority? Could a word of affirmation encourage men to keep pursuing what they are doing well? I will be the first to admit that I have failed in this more than I have done it well, and if you are a guy reading this who has fallen victim to any scathing remarks or passive aggression, I am deeply sorry. I want to love you better in this way in the future! [As a caveat, single ladies (and gentlemen), we obviously need to be wise about how we pour out words of affirmation on people of the opposite gender with whom we are not pursuing a romantic relationship.]
3. Set an Inspiring Example : I think Leslie Ludy said it well, so I'm just going to quote her directly: "When women choose to embrace godly strength and dignity, it sets and inspiring example for today's men. When guys observe a woman who holds to a higher standard than the cheap, desperate femininity of our culture, he is intrigued. And often, he is motivated to become the kind of man who is worthy of that kind of woman's heart."
4. Choose Faith Over Despair : I'm going to change her wording here and say, "Make sure your faith isn't misplaced." Psalm 146:3 says, "Put not your trust in princes, in a son of man, in whom there is no salvation," and Psalm 118:8 says, "It is better to take refuge in the Lord than to trust in man." Look to God and trust him to sanctify the men in your life and satisfy your soul; don't look to men to "save" you in some way. They will never live up to your expectations because you are placing them on a pedestal meant for God alone. As Ludy says, "Just as there are widespread problems with modern masculinity, there are also widespread problems with femininity. It is very dangerous to blame men as the prime culprits for all our cultural and relational woes. Men are not the problem -- sin is. And sin is something that each and every one of us has participated in -- male or female."
May everything we think, say, and do be full of grace and dignity as we interact with and love those who are different from us. And to circle back around to the singleness thing... Single friends, what would it look like to meditate on and live out these things instead of letting our eyes forever flit back to our naked left hand and find our worth in who has or has not put a ring on it?
"And don’t be wishing you were someplace else or with someone else. Where you are right now is God’s place for you. Live and obey and love and believe right there. God, not your marital status, defines your life." (1 Corinthians 7:17, the Message)
Friday, October 13, 2017
chick-fil-a sauce & the sovereignty of God.
I've been thinking a lot about God's sovereignty lately.
[And, because I'm a word nerd, I just looked up what "sovereign" actually means. According to dictionary.com, it is an adjective meaning "having supreme rank, power, or authority," "preeminent," "indisputable," "being above all others in character, importance, excellence, etc." In case you were wondering.]
A couple of months ago, God used Chick-fil-a sauce to remind me of his sovereignty (his "power"... "authority"... "preeminence").
I was having a lunch meeting with my coworker at Hope Reins (the non-profit ministry where I currently work part time that uses horses as therapy for kids in crisis, which is itself an example of God's sovereignty! Seriously, I'll have to tell you sometime about how this opportunity came about...but I digress...), and I had picked up Chick-fil-a for us. But (gasp!) they had given us a minimal amount of Chick-fil-a sauce. But wait! My coworker happened to have a couple of packets in her car from when they had given her extra the day before. So she went out to her car to get them and was gone for a while. When she came back, she told me how she had run into one of the interns who she thought had already left for the day. But because my coworker unexpectedly went out to her car at that moment, she was able to talk to her about something tough she was going through and encourage her in that.
My coworker pointed me to God's providence in that moment: "Just think...If you hadn't asked if I wanted something from Chick-fil-a...and then if they had given you enough Chick-fil-a sauce...and if they hadn't given me extra the day before...that conversation never would have happened. Isn't it amazing how God was working to bring that conversation about even the day before it happened?"
I had a similar conversation the other day as I was FaceTiming with a friend from England that I had met in Italy. And he pointed out the crazy fact that if any of the intricate details that surrounded the formation of our friendship hadn't happened (such as, most notably, both moving to Rome within a month of each other and having mutual friends), we likely never would have met. And yet here we were...catching up on each other's lives and reminiscing about a beautiful shared season.
I think C.S. Lewis explains this best:
I don't think either of the scenarios described above were mere accidents. Sheer chance. Just fate. No...I believe there's an Author of this story.
And what I believe about God's sovereignty affects how I view everything else...my salvation (Do I choose God or did he choose me before the foundation of the world? Does he initiate salvation or is it all up to me...whether or not I "make a decision for Christ"?)...my location and occupation (Does God call me to specific places and people and jobs, or is whatever and wherever I decide fine as long as I'm living "as unto the Lord"?)...my love life (Does God draw us [let's call that the ever-inexplicable "chemistry," shall we?] to a particular person with whom we could best serve him? Or does God not really care who we marry, as long as they share the same beliefs/values/goals?).
I've thought a lot about this in the past year or so. Partly because I wrote a 12-page research paper about "Can Prayer Change God's Will?" for a Theology class last year. And partly because I've internally and externally processed all the aforementioned questions. Many times.
Because this question is much (MUCH) bigger than a blog post but I want to keep it brief...I'm going to do something I don't usually do: I'm going to share with you something I wrote in my prayer journal the other day (omitting, of course, some of the specifics...so you can relate it to those areas in your own life in which your faith in God's sovereignty might feel shaky and your prayers feel unanswered).
"Creator of the Universe,
Father. Bridegroom. Brother. Friend. Shepherd. Head. Servant. Lion. Lamb.
Metaphors.
Echoes.
Traces.
Hints.
They're everywhere.
You created this world with built-in reflections of your character. So we could know you more. So we could have visible, tangible representations of our not-yet-seen God.
But they're just dim reflections. Like looking in a smudged, broken mirror. That's all we have for now. But one day we'll see you up-close-and-personal. Face to face. No more veil. No more mirror. Full-on togetherness. Forever.
OH HOW I LONG FOR THAT DAY!
This world is beautiful, but it's so broken. It brings pleasure and pain. It fills up our senses, but it leaves us aching for the real thing. YOU are the real thing. You are the only permanent, whole, never-changing, fully-satisfying thing. You are perfectly complete and completely perfect in and of yourself.
OH GOD! Why am I always looking to the right and to the left? Why are my affections -- my heart -- so easily seduced? I cannot love you perfectly (yet) and yet you love me still. Why? I am so unworthy of your great grace.
Oh Lord...empty me. Fill me with yourself. Help my heart long for you only. What would that look like? To no longer chase the things of this world?
Oh Father. You know my heart. You know what distracts me most. You know what it longs for (but that I desperately don't want to want more than you).
But you withhold no good thing. And you are a good, good Father. When I ask for bread, you won't give me a stone. Like the impudent neighbor and the persistent widow (Luke 11 and 18), you tell us to be bold enough to bother you!
So I'll keep coming before you. If for nothing else, just to be in your presence. Like a peasant coming before a king. Day after day. Eventually more or less forgetting what she was asking for but just coming to spend time with the king himself. And maybe that's why you don't give us what we want right away...because it is in the continual coming to you that our relationship with you grows. If you simply handed us our every whim, we'd skip obliviously away from you to revel in our latest treasure, only to come crawling back to you when we yearned for the next thing.
But in not answering us right away, we are compelled to come before you consistently. In doing so, you call us to spend more time with you. You don't always answer us by granting our requests, but you answer us with yourself, with your character. And our hearts grow to love more deeply the thing (or person) for which we are praying. So if (in your timing) you see fit to open the floodgates and rain down the affirmative answer to our prayer, we will weep with joy and you are more greatly glorified than if we had prayed for it once and you were just a wish-granting genie-god.
But you're not. You're bigger. You're sovereign. You know best. Better, higher ways and thoughts. Thank you. For not answering our prayers right away. For being bigger. Wiser.
Sovereign.
Help me to trust. Even in the aching. The waiting. The already but not yet..."
May we grow in our faith...seeing our waiting and our being still as an active act of trust in our Sovereign God. And may we have eyes to see how he is working all things together for his glory and our good. Even in something as small as a packet of Chick-fil-a sauce.
[And, because I'm a word nerd, I just looked up what "sovereign" actually means. According to dictionary.com, it is an adjective meaning "having supreme rank, power, or authority," "preeminent," "indisputable," "being above all others in character, importance, excellence, etc." In case you were wondering.]
A couple of months ago, God used Chick-fil-a sauce to remind me of his sovereignty (his "power"... "authority"... "preeminence").
I was having a lunch meeting with my coworker at Hope Reins (the non-profit ministry where I currently work part time that uses horses as therapy for kids in crisis, which is itself an example of God's sovereignty! Seriously, I'll have to tell you sometime about how this opportunity came about...but I digress...), and I had picked up Chick-fil-a for us. But (gasp!) they had given us a minimal amount of Chick-fil-a sauce. But wait! My coworker happened to have a couple of packets in her car from when they had given her extra the day before. So she went out to her car to get them and was gone for a while. When she came back, she told me how she had run into one of the interns who she thought had already left for the day. But because my coworker unexpectedly went out to her car at that moment, she was able to talk to her about something tough she was going through and encourage her in that.
My coworker pointed me to God's providence in that moment: "Just think...If you hadn't asked if I wanted something from Chick-fil-a...and then if they had given you enough Chick-fil-a sauce...and if they hadn't given me extra the day before...that conversation never would have happened. Isn't it amazing how God was working to bring that conversation about even the day before it happened?"
I had a similar conversation the other day as I was FaceTiming with a friend from England that I had met in Italy. And he pointed out the crazy fact that if any of the intricate details that surrounded the formation of our friendship hadn't happened (such as, most notably, both moving to Rome within a month of each other and having mutual friends), we likely never would have met. And yet here we were...catching up on each other's lives and reminiscing about a beautiful shared season.
I think C.S. Lewis explains this best:
In friendship…we think we have chosen our peers. In reality a few years’ difference in the dates of our births, a few more miles between certain houses, the choice of one university instead of another…the accident of a topic being raised or not raised at a first meeting–any of these chances might have kept us apart. But, for a Christian, there are, strictly speaking no chances. A secret master of ceremonies has been at work. Christ, who said to the disciples, “Ye have not chosen me, but I have chosen you,” can truly say to every group of Christian friends, “Ye have not chosen one another but I have chosen you for one another.” The friendship is not a reward for our discriminating and good taste in finding one another out. It is the instrument by which God reveals to each of us the beauties of others.
I don't think either of the scenarios described above were mere accidents. Sheer chance. Just fate. No...I believe there's an Author of this story.
And what I believe about God's sovereignty affects how I view everything else...my salvation (Do I choose God or did he choose me before the foundation of the world? Does he initiate salvation or is it all up to me...whether or not I "make a decision for Christ"?)...my location and occupation (Does God call me to specific places and people and jobs, or is whatever and wherever I decide fine as long as I'm living "as unto the Lord"?)...my love life (Does God draw us [let's call that the ever-inexplicable "chemistry," shall we?] to a particular person with whom we could best serve him? Or does God not really care who we marry, as long as they share the same beliefs/values/goals?).
I've thought a lot about this in the past year or so. Partly because I wrote a 12-page research paper about "Can Prayer Change God's Will?" for a Theology class last year. And partly because I've internally and externally processed all the aforementioned questions. Many times.
Because this question is much (MUCH) bigger than a blog post but I want to keep it brief...I'm going to do something I don't usually do: I'm going to share with you something I wrote in my prayer journal the other day (omitting, of course, some of the specifics...so you can relate it to those areas in your own life in which your faith in God's sovereignty might feel shaky and your prayers feel unanswered).
"Creator of the Universe,
Father. Bridegroom. Brother. Friend. Shepherd. Head. Servant. Lion. Lamb.
Metaphors.
Echoes.
Traces.
Hints.
They're everywhere.
You created this world with built-in reflections of your character. So we could know you more. So we could have visible, tangible representations of our not-yet-seen God.
But they're just dim reflections. Like looking in a smudged, broken mirror. That's all we have for now. But one day we'll see you up-close-and-personal. Face to face. No more veil. No more mirror. Full-on togetherness. Forever.
OH HOW I LONG FOR THAT DAY!
This world is beautiful, but it's so broken. It brings pleasure and pain. It fills up our senses, but it leaves us aching for the real thing. YOU are the real thing. You are the only permanent, whole, never-changing, fully-satisfying thing. You are perfectly complete and completely perfect in and of yourself.
OH GOD! Why am I always looking to the right and to the left? Why are my affections -- my heart -- so easily seduced? I cannot love you perfectly (yet) and yet you love me still. Why? I am so unworthy of your great grace.
Oh Lord...empty me. Fill me with yourself. Help my heart long for you only. What would that look like? To no longer chase the things of this world?
Oh Father. You know my heart. You know what distracts me most. You know what it longs for (but that I desperately don't want to want more than you).
But you withhold no good thing. And you are a good, good Father. When I ask for bread, you won't give me a stone. Like the impudent neighbor and the persistent widow (Luke 11 and 18), you tell us to be bold enough to bother you!
So I'll keep coming before you. If for nothing else, just to be in your presence. Like a peasant coming before a king. Day after day. Eventually more or less forgetting what she was asking for but just coming to spend time with the king himself. And maybe that's why you don't give us what we want right away...because it is in the continual coming to you that our relationship with you grows. If you simply handed us our every whim, we'd skip obliviously away from you to revel in our latest treasure, only to come crawling back to you when we yearned for the next thing.
But in not answering us right away, we are compelled to come before you consistently. In doing so, you call us to spend more time with you. You don't always answer us by granting our requests, but you answer us with yourself, with your character. And our hearts grow to love more deeply the thing (or person) for which we are praying. So if (in your timing) you see fit to open the floodgates and rain down the affirmative answer to our prayer, we will weep with joy and you are more greatly glorified than if we had prayed for it once and you were just a wish-granting genie-god.
But you're not. You're bigger. You're sovereign. You know best. Better, higher ways and thoughts. Thank you. For not answering our prayers right away. For being bigger. Wiser.
Sovereign.
Help me to trust. Even in the aching. The waiting. The already but not yet..."
May we grow in our faith...seeing our waiting and our being still as an active act of trust in our Sovereign God. And may we have eyes to see how he is working all things together for his glory and our good. Even in something as small as a packet of Chick-fil-a sauce.
Friday, June 9, 2017
musings on marriage.
So, this past semester I took a Marital and Pre-marital Counseling class for my degree. It's been my favorite class so far, and I've learned so much about interpersonal relationships in general and hopefully a great many things I'll be able to personally put into practice someday if God ever calls me to be someone's wife in addition to helping others to make steps toward healthier marriages. And I'm probably far too interested in marital relationship dynamics than is healthy for an unmarried person, but I'm just super fascinated by aspects of personality, communication styles, conflict resolution, the impact of family of origin, what makes a person tick and what makes people click and all that jazz.
So anyway, one of our final assignments was to make a list of "Ten Key Truths" that we learned from taking the class. All these things have been incredibly helpful for me to reflect upon, so I thought you might like to meditate on these musings as well. [Also, married friends: PLEASE tell me what you think of these...In your experience, are these accurate? Do these things hold true? What additional key truths would you add to help educate we not-yet-married folk?]
So anyway, one of our final assignments was to make a list of "Ten Key Truths" that we learned from taking the class. All these things have been incredibly helpful for me to reflect upon, so I thought you might like to meditate on these musings as well. [Also, married friends: PLEASE tell me what you think of these...In your experience, are these accurate? Do these things hold true? What additional key truths would you add to help educate we not-yet-married folk?]
1. God did not design marriage for your personal happiness but primarily
for your growth in holiness. This idea is Gary Thomas’s thesis in his book,
Sacred Marriage. Love and marriage
are not about what your spouse can do for you and how he or she will fulfill
you, satisfy you, or make you happy. Instead, God uses the challenges of marriage
to chip away your rough edges and conform you more into the image of His Son. The
refining fire of living in close relationship with another sinner is ultimately
for His glory and your good. [Psalm 66:10-12, Zechariah 13:9, Romans 8:28]
2. The problem is not loving your spouse too much or not enough, but not
loving God enough. Both Tim Keller’s The
Meaning of Marriage and Paul Tripp’s What
Did You Expect? accentuate this idea. When you make an idol of your spouse,
you expect your husband or wife to fill a role that only God can fill. You need
to reorder your loves to love Him first, foremost, and with your whole heart,
for He is a jealous God. In loving God more, you will be able to love and serve
your spouse better without trying to make him or her your functional god, and
you will not be disappointed and punish your spouse when he or she inevitably
lets you down. [Deut. 6:5, Exodus 20:1-6, Habakkuk 2:18-20, Romans 1:25]
3. Love in marriage requires sacrifice and selflessness. Sometimes
even the choice to marry someone has little to do with loving that person and
more to do with loving yourself and how that person fits into your plans and
ideals. According to Paul Tripp in What
Did You Expect?, “Love is willing self-sacrifice for the good of another
that does not require reciprocation or that the person being loved is
deserving.” Even when your spouse falls short of your expectations, you are
called to serve and die for this person. [Phil. 2:1-10, John 15:12-17,
Ephesians 5:1-2 & 25]
4. Commitment is the anchor of marriage. According to Tim Keller in The Meaning of Marriage, "wedding
vows are not a declaration of present love but a mutually binding promise of
future love" and they "keep you from simply running out too
quickly" or giving up when feelings fade. Commitment
transforms a promise into reality and puts your words into action. Commitment
says, “I choose to actively love you and fight for you, even if my feelings are
telling me otherwise.” Commitment perseveres, whatever comes. Without choosing
to commit to your spouse, you will find yourself trying to justify any reason
to run when trials come. [1 Corinthians 13:7, Numbers 30:2, Ecclesiastes 5:1-7]
5. Healthy marital communication begins with your attitude and is impacted
by how you approach the conversation, your differing communications styles, how
well you listen to each other, and your level of emotional reactivity. Communication
is less a matter of technique and more a matter of your attitude towards and
perception of your spouse. Don’t let a negative relationship history or
negative affect reciprocity perpetuate pessimism and disputes. Seek to
communicate past the superficial levels of cliché, facts, and opinions, and dig
deeper into feelings with honesty and vulnerability. Remember that good
communication involves listening well, and according to H. Norman Wright, “Listening
means that you’re trying to understand the feelings of the other and that you’re
doing it for his or her sake.” [Romans 12:9-21, Luke 6:45, Colossians 4:6]
6. There is a level of intimacy that only comes through communicating
through difficult issues. Even if and when conflict arises, do not despair
or worry that you married the wrong person. Conflict is an opportunity for
growth. In healthy couples, conflict can add energy to your marriage and bring
you to a deeper level of intimacy than if you never had to work through
difficult situations. Like working a muscle, communicating through
disagreements and difficult decisions can be a relational strength-building
exercise. So, in reality, conflict is evidence of God’s grace; He refuses to
leave you in a mediocre, one-dimensional, carefree marriage but instead makes
your relationship stronger and deeper through the tension, building character
and endurance in each of you individually as well. [James 1:2-4, Colossians
3:12-17, 1 Peter 6-7, Romans 5:1-5]
7. Intimacy is about more than just sex, and plain-and-simple
conversational intimacy is foundational and affects all levels of intimacy.
There are five types of intimacy (conversational, physical, emotional, sexual,
and spiritual), and you can rarely have a healthy sex life without all five.
You need to learn to communicate intimacy on all five levels, not just on a
sexual level. There are also many barriers to intimacy, such as lack of
knowledge or understanding about each other, habitual criticism, resentment,
lack of trust, and failure to prioritize your spouse. You need to work to break
down these barriers and strive for authentic vulnerability, because you can’t
be defensive and vulnerable at the same time! Improving intimacy on all five
levels will help your spouse feel safe enough to be vulnerable. [Genesis 2:25, 1
Corinthians 13, 1 John 4:7-21, Ephesians 4:1-3]
8. Perpetual problems rooted in personality differences can’t be “fixed”
and don’t need to be “fixed.” We must learn to celebrate our differences. Remember
that your way is not the “right” way. You were each created as unique
individuals with particular personality traits. These differences can be a
blessing if you learn to appreciate them and allow yourself to be stretched by
pondering a perspective other than your own. You are better equipped to serve
the Lord with your spouse because you can each balance out the other’s
strengths and weaknesses. It is a great thing that you didn’t marry your clone,
in which case one of you would be unnecessary! Leo Tolstoy summarizes it well
in saying, “What counts in making a happy marriage is not so much how
compatible you are but how you deal with incompatibility.” [Psalm 139:13-16, 1
Corinthians 12]
9. Many issues in marriage are caused because spouses fail to properly
understand and work through family of origin issues. When you and your
spouse got married, you each brought a lifetime of family history, holiday
traditions, doing things a certain way, and even the pain of unresolved
familial issues. You must learn to “leave and cleave,” choosing your spouse and
working together to create your own traditions and systems. [Gen. 2:24,
Ephesians 5:31-33]
10. Marriage is hard work, but it’s not complicated. It’s not rocket
science. But it does take disciplined and intentional effort. You’re never in
more danger than when you allow yourself to coast. So, you have to work on your
marriage, but you don’t have to constantly dissect it or over-analyze it. God is
not a God of chaos or confusion, but He does call us to faithfulness,
obedience, and diligence. [1 Corinthians 14:33, Matt. 11:25-30, Colossians
3:23-24]
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